I’ve imagined myself writing this post for 3 months now….the title, what I’d say, how I’d feel writing it, and the tears that would flow while writing. As some of you may have noticed, I took a temporary hiatus from blogging, and quite honestly “real life.” In short, and without a lot of detail, – – upon return from our truly BLISSFUL 3 week vacation in Naples, my husband lost his job. Goodbye 20 years of blood, sweat & tears…..it was over. Were we shocked? Well……not entirely due to the circumstances. I mean, you might even say my husband felt a great sense of relief (again, for many reasons). So, as a good wifey, I started out optimistic, supportive & hopeful. I put my happy face on, gave resume advice, researched jobs in his field and even kept myself open to relocation (to Florida).
As time went on, you could say my sense of optimism started waning….I knew we were entering one of those dark seasons….I felt it. As we dealt with interviews, recruiters, and uncertainty I could feel the life being sucked out of me. I was sinking and grasping for God’s hand – praying constantly while KNOWING and REPEATING to myself “This too, shall pass.” It just had to pass. Week after week, I’d listen for Chris’ phone to ring – hopeful the news on the other end would be delivering the answer to our prayers. I’d wait to hear footsteps coming up or down the stairs to tell me the “good news.” While I had confided in a small group of close friends, I found myself starting to avoid those that were closest to me for fear that I’d break in front of them. This was NOT ME. My fuse at home got shorter and shorter….my fear of the unknown started swallowing me. All of the “what if’s” consumed my thoughts. I’d lay in bed at night praying & fighting off those dark “worst case scenario” thoughts. As time went by, the severance stopped & let’s just say “shit got real.” One of these opportunities HAD to work out. Time was NOT on our side, but you know who was, right?
Almost out of no where Chris got “the call” we had been waiting for – THE role he had gone into the “job search” seeking, the one that is PERFECT for him, was now HIS. (While this certainly didn’t happen overnight, the interview/offer process WAS put on the fast track, for a large company, due to Chris’ knowledge and expertise in his industry.) THIS WAS IT! Our prayers had been answered! We could STAY here in Indiana with our family AND the hubs would be taking on an incredible role with a very large, established company! This too, HAD passed – I could see the dark clouds clearing…I could feel the weight being lifted off BOTH of our shoulders. We are so thankful for friends and family who prayed for us and stuck by our side during this season. Goodness it was rough, but we made it! This weekend at church I will YET AGAIN thank itown’s “prayer team” for another prayer ANSWERED! Week after week I’ve included my husband & his job search in their “prayer requests,” just like I had in the past for several other very “close to me” matters, KNOWING that those prayers would eventually be answered. I’m adding this one to the long list! Prayer works friends….it works.
Again, thank you FRIENDS and FAMILY for your support during this season. As we (happily) adjust to a new normal with Chris’ new position which will most likely include lots of travel, I hope to slowly get back to sharing real life on here.
For any of you going through a similar “dark season” – I’m praying for you. Keep your chin up & keep your faith VERY first!
xoxo – Jamie
P.S. As many of you ALSO know, I’ve mixed a few things up in my life during this “interesting” time! 1. I joined a new gym & totally changed up my fitness routine. B Present Studio has been such a HUGE blessing – between the amazing instructors AND incredible ladies I’ve met, I just KNOW that God, once again, had this all planned. There were days I’d show up to class filled with anxiety and leave with a renewed sense of peace and hope. My girls at B Present are life-giving, supportive, AMAZING women. I cannot thank all of you enough!!!! 2. In addition to my weekly “subbing” at my kid’s school, I started working 1 day a week at a lovely boutique owned by two beautiful friends – State of Grace. If you know me, you also know that I LOVE fashion, clothes and shopping. When I learned that my friend (and barre instructor) was going to be opening this boutique super close to our house, I knew I wanted to help out! Soooo, what started as doing a little modeling of their clothing has turned into such a fun job for me! I look forward to spending my Thursdays at State of Grace! Not to mention – they have the CUTEST clothes! Heaven!!!! Fishers friends – come see me!
P.P.S. A huge thank you to my husband….my best friend, my partner in crime, everything. Your patience, level headedness and optimism are such admirable traits. You are so smart, so talented & I just know this is your time to SHINE. This is what we’ve been waiting (and praying for). Thank you for putting up with me, comforting me and carrying US through this. We love you so much & are SO proud of you!!!!